i miss someone

I don't feel good, I don't feel right. I don't know why. I have mixed feelings. I am missing someone right now.

As I've mentioned earlier... someone, someone, someone... hmmm.. what has got into me.. haizzz.. :(

goodbye singapore, hello kuala lumpur!

will be away for a short trip with my dearest family to kuala lumpur. Good bye everyone!!

with love from Shanghai

From your dearest, fiza...
with love, from Shanghai, China.

hehe.. already missing everyone in Singapore... and most importantly food..! haha.. **susah jadi perantau kat negeri orang ni ye..** ;)))

iman - faith

ke mana perginya iman..?
ke mana perginya taat..?
ke mana perginya arah..?
hmmm.......?

~~~ aku kebingungan ~~~

down with asthma

Down with asthma since last week and unfortunately it has not yet cured.. SubhanAllah.. i'm afraid that my lung weekness will drag till my Shanghai trip this Thursday.. Hope that it will ease soon, still can hear the wheezing sound.. haiz.. I have even refrained myself from drinking cold drinks.. But the cough is still there.. hmmmm...

wake up call

something drastic happen last midnite, haiz.. a great disappointment but its not our fault.. we've been hit.. hmmm.. again, another wake up call, fiza fiza, bug up..!!!

janganlah hanya mengukir janji

Jika kau rasa getarnya - SLAM

Janganlah hanya mengukir janji
Sedangkan dikau masih mencari
Adakah benar kata kata
Bukan ungkapan sementara

Kaulah pancaran yang daku rasa
Bagaikan obor yang menyinar
Jika terpadam tiba tiba
Sunyilah insan alam gelita

Jika kau selam hati ini
Pastinya engkau kan mengerti
Betapa sucinya cintaku
Jangan diragu

Jika kau rasa getarnya
Debaran kasih cinta yang meronta
Nilai kasihku padamu cukup berharga

Bukan simpati yang aku pinta
Kebenaranmu memutus kata
Agar dapatku abadikan
Untuk pedoman peniti cinta

Jika kau selam hati ini
Pastinya engkau kan mengerti
Betapa sucinya cintaku
Jangan diragu

Jika kau rasa getarnya
Debaran kasih cinta yang meronta
Nilai kasihku padamu
Cukup berharga

---

PS: 16 more days.... mixed feelings..
:)
:(
hmmm.....

self-potrait

as usual.. hehehe.. to those who don't know who am i.. this is me.. :)

~fiza~

sekadar renungan

cinta dan hati saya adalah untuk orang yang benar-benar ikhlas memiliki saya bukan untuk dipersendakan..

-- kata-kata ini bukan milik saya, dipetik dari sebuah filem, namun ia mencerminkan sesuatu di jiwa ini..

Shaum sunnat Arafah

Sebagaimana hadith yang diriwayatkan oleh Muslim:
"Shaum (puasa) pada hari Arafah (9 Dzulhijjah) itu menghapuskan dosa tahun yang lalu dan tahun yang akan datang." (InsyaAllah)

Ayuh sama-sama kita menghidupkan sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w.

sahabat

Kepada semua yang bergelar sahabat,

Terima kasih,
kerana engkau ada di saatku memerlukanmu.
Terima kasih,
kerana engkau membangkitkanku sewaktu jatuhku.
Terima kasih,
kerana engkau menceriakanku di masa hibaku.
Terima kasih,
kerana engkau memahami jiwa geloraku.

Andai ini waktu terakhir bagiku,
sudilah memaafkan ku atas segala khilafku,
iringilah do'amu buatku selalu,
akanku sematkan segala kenangan bersamamu.
Terima kasih, sahabatku.

Salam Ukhwah,
Hafiza Hussin,
14 Nov 2010

bila hati ini

bila hati berjauhan terasa rindu
bila hati berdekatan terasa sayu
bila bertentangan nadi berdegup merdu


adakah ini gelora di jiwaku
yang tidak mengerti apa yang ku mahu
aku buntu mengenangkan sikapku


Ya Allah, lindungilah aku
agar tidak aku terus begitu
melangkah jauh tanpaMu
sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Satu
tempat di mana aku mengadu

and i shall play with the rhythm of your music

i had a sensible conversation last Saturday 'morning', a one-to-one talk, a serious conversation i could say..
i get to asked questions that i've been wondering all this while..

Five senses.. thats a promise, thats what i received.. now i know where i stand.. thanks for the assurance..

i knock my heart and ask myself the same queries.. do i feel it?









Yes, i do.

if you hurt me

If you hurt me, slowly but definitely, i will be able to forgive you. But, my mum won't forgive you and so will my dad. ****fierce betul! That's what my mum told me yesterday, so people out there, be careful.. ^^,)

Parents are very protective to their children, especially their one and only daughter. I love both my mak and abah, even though I've never say it to them verbally, I always show my love with my actions.

I know they will always protect me.
I know they will always be there for me.
I know they will always love me.

They will never want to see their daughter get hurt...

Thanks Mak, Abah!!


On a separate note, i would also like to say a special thanks to his mum... :D

selamat berhujung minggu

Cetusan ilham telah kembali,
Melakar puisi coretan hati,
Buat teman yang disayangi,
Yang senantiasa dirindui,

Selamat berhujung minggu!

baju kurung

From now on, I've promised myself to wear baju kurung or kebaya or any malay traditional clothes on Thursday. Since Friday is a dress down day, I will dress up in my traditional costume on Thursdays!

My wardrobe is filling up, if I don't start wearing them frequently, I wonder when will I use them. Therefore I've made a promise to myself to wear it (unless otherwise stated) while I can fit into it! Hehehe!!

**siapa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan** ewah~~~ hehe.. :-)

Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui

Dari Jabir ra, ia berkata, Nabi saw. pernah mengajarkan kami istikharah semua urusan (penting) sebagaimana beliau ajarkan kami surah Al-Qur'an, beliau bersabda, "Apabila seorang di antara kamu hendak mengerjakan suatu perkara (penting), hendaklah ia solat dua raka'at yang bukan fardhu, kemudian ucapkanlah Allahumma, ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku minta Engkau pilihkan yang baik dengan pengetahuanMu, dan aku minta kekuatan kepadaMu dengan kekuatanMu, dan aku minta kepadaMu kurniaMu yang luas, kerana sesungguhnya Engkau berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui, dan Engkaulah yang mengetahui perkara-perkara ghaib. Ya Allah, kalau engkau mengetahui bahawa urusan ini baik bagiku, buat agamaku, kehidupanku dan buat hari kesudahanku - atau ia mengucapkan, 'Baik dalam urusan yang dunia mahupun akhirat' - maka berikanlah dia kepadaku. Jika Engkau sudah mengetahui bahawa urusan ini tidak baik bagiku buat agamaku dan penghidupanku dan hari penghabisanku - atau ia mengucapkan, 'Baik dalam urusan yang segera mahupun yang tidak' - maka palingkanlah dia dariku dan palingkanlah aku darinya, dan tentukan kepadaku kebaikkan itu, walau dimanapun adanya kemudian jadikanlah aku orang yang redha kepada (pemberian) itu.'
Kemudian menyebutkan apa yang dihajatinya."

(Fathul Bari XI: 183: no: 6382)

sekat makan

orang kata... jangan sekat makan, nanti tak cukup makan, badan tak sihat. kita perlukan makanan untuk hidup..

tetapi...

kalau tak sekat makan, macamana nak diet??!! hahahaha!! kekek ahhh lu!!

makan secara sederhana.. ayuh kita tunggu dan lihat!!

Syukur Alhamdulillah

Setiap kesabaran pasti akan membawa berkat suatu hari nanti.
Setiap do'a pasti akan terjawab suatu hari nanti.
InsyaAllah, segalanya ketentuan yang maha Esa.
Jangan pernah putus memohon padaNya.

Semoga kalian semua bisa mendapatkan apa yang kalian ingini suatu hari nanti.

Bagiku, hari ini merupakan satu titik langkah yang amat berharga bagi diri ini, akan ku sematkan segala kenangan manis ini di diari hatiku. Terima kasih.. syukur Alhamdulillah.

i'm excited

seriously i don't know why i feel too excited but nervous at the same time. waiting for tomorrow... **wink wink** hahaha.. nothing much, nothing special! let's just wait and see.. my heart is beating at a faster rate.. hmmmm i still wonder whyyyy ^^,)

ketandusan ilham

Aku ingin berkarya,
berkarya untuk sebuah misi,
misi untuk minggu hadapan.
^^,

Tetapi...
sesungguhnya ilhamku kurang,
aku percaya ilham takkan datang,
jika dipaksa.
Ilhamkan datang dengan sendirinya.
Ilham...Ilham...Ilham...

Aku perlu untuk merakam setiap kali ilham menjelma.. apa guna ada iphone kan? jadi tak perlu aku memerah keringat... hehehe

be careful of what we wish for

last sunday night, me, zaki & him went to jb.. he drove us around, when we were on our way back, there's a major accident that takes up all the 3 lanes from jb to sg.. the motorbike rider pass away at the scene :(
i was shock to see the police tentage.. scared too.. saw the motorbike which was about 5m away from the body.. the rider must have run into something fast or may have ride at a very fast speed.. whatever it is, i feel sorry for the rider's family.. the bike is quite big, bigger than the normal 125cc bike..

at the moment while we were queueing at the checkpoint back to singapore, he ask me a jackpot question.. "if it was me lying there, what would u do?"
i told him straight.. be careful of what we wish or say.. because every words that come out from our mouth are "do'as" (prayers)
but deep in my heart i feel sad.. actually everytime whenever i saw an accident on the road, i will always message him.. cause i worried too much.. and if he never reply my sms, my heart will tend to beat faster.. the feelings come naturally... i can only pray for his well-being.. in the end, its Him, who decide...

to all drivers and/or riders (especially), please drive and/or ride safely...... remember there are always a lot of people waiting for you to reach home safely...

ps: think before you speed! ingat sebelum pecut!

coz i don't

coz i don't know how to lie
coz i don't know how to fake
coz i know He's there with me

~~coz a sincere heart can never be measured~~

When the going gets tough, the tough get going

The phrase means: When a situation is difficult or dangerous, strong people work harder to resolve the problem. This saying relies on a difficult play on words; it could be rephrased word-for-word as: "When the situation becomes hard, strong people start working."

source: http://www.englishclub.com/ref/esl/Sayings/Quizzes/Modern/When_the_going_gets_tough_the_tough_get_going_1314.htm


hopefully... i will be able to overcome this "difficult" situation and resolve the problem... may the force be with me.. just a few more laps to go..


i know i can do it, i believe i can do it...


to my dear families & friends,

please do keep your prayers in.. i really need those :)

force

there are a lot of things that can't be force.. the most important thing is LOVE. it comes with a sincere heart from two parties, it can only be felt within your heart, 'knock into your heart and ask yourself the question.. are you really in love?' well.. it is all depends on the two parties as well.. once someone ever told me that we will always need two hands to clap, and till now i still hold on to that belief.


if you ever feel out of love all of a sudden, stop whatever you are doing and ponder.. communication is still the best way out. men and women are the most egoist person is this world, but at times we have to let our ego down in order to remain humble as we are just the slaves in this world.. we won't be living forever.. if we were to bring down our ego, i strongly believe it will help not only in a relationship of lovers but also within your family members...


wallahualam..

system down once again

having fever since this afternoon, can't stand the heat on my body and throat.. had drank lots of plain water and taken panadol.. but still have not yet recovered.. haiz..

:((

lots of things need to be done.. i need to stay healthy.. hmmm

i miss you

to whom it may concern,

i miss you so muchhh..
:( :( :(

Salam Aidilfitri

di sini saya mengambil kesempatan untuk mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin. Maaf atas segala kesilapan ketika saya blog di sini. Saya juga ingin mendo'akan: Taqaballahu Minna Wa Minkum: Semoga Allah menerima segala amalan kita sepanjang bulan Ramadhan ini... insyaAllah!

i want to be your asset and not your liability

asset:
- someone who is a 'need' to you
- someone whom you would love to have all time
- someone who will always give you happiness

liability:
- someone who gives you sorrows
- someone who only eat up your wealth
- someone who has negative value on you

ps: to whoever it may concern, that is my promises to you

Rindu Memaksaku Menyayangimu - Francesca Peter

Rindu Memaksaku Menyayangimu (nyanyian Francesca Peter)

Andai engkau mengerti
Perasaan di hati ini
Pasti engkau menyedari
Betapa hatiku merinduimu

Bukan mudahnya aku
Untuk melafazkan cinta
Sekaliku melafazkan
Sampai bila pun ku menyintamu

Rindu memaksaku menyayangimu
Tak dayaku menahan
Segala perasaan aku
Yang makin gelora
Setelah engkau menyedari
Sambutlah cintaku

Sepi mengajar aku
Tentang perlunya cinta
Walau pedih walau perit
Terpaksa aku menghadapi

Tiada apa yang engkau pinta
Sekadar kesetiaan
Selagi rindumu masih dihati
Cintamu terus bersemi....

never hope too much

i'm pretty sure most of us love surprises.. DO YOU?
whenever we hope too much and things didn't happen as what we hope, we will feel disappointed. angry? most probably, but to whom will we blame it to? ourselves? or...?

oh well...

human... will never change.
human with bad attitude - worst!

whenever we don't hope too much, things might turn out to be better, cause we, as a normal human beings love surprises, especially the pleasant ones :D


so.. let's not hope too much, bring down our high expectations to an achievable level. insyaAllah, if God wills, everything will move smoothly.. He who determines..

---

had a fantastic time with dearest Dee, Aini and Sab... 3 of us are the so-called cvps staff alumni.. heheeh
had our iftar session at dhobby ghaut atrium @orchard, long catching up session, as usual ;)

this saturday i'm gonna have another iftar session, this time round with the ex-wrss guys and gals.. hopefully lots of them will turn up.. more catching up need to be done too. the place has yet to be confirm but i am sure its gonna be somewhere around town area, hopefully i can drive there..
thanks to our dearest Hallinah for organising this session every year without fail :)

over at Persis, they are going have an iftar session this saturday too, but since i've promised the above date first, i'm gonna prioritize it... fiza never break promise, insyaAllah... hehee..


to all my Muslim readers out there, stay healthy and let us grab all the opportunity that we can in this blessed journey of the Ramadhan..

Ramadhan - Ramli Sarip

Ramadhan - Ramli Sarip


Naluri kita manusia
Selalu leka
Hanya sujud dan sembah
Padanya jua

Kini engkauku datangi
Berserah diri
Bersama kehitaman masa
Nan silam

AmpunanMu kuharapkan
Tiada daya...ku menghindarkan
Kesalahan dan dosaku
Hanya Engkau Yang Tahu

Di Ramadhan ini kabulkan doaku

Suluhkanlah cahayaMu
Di malam yang penuh syahdu

---

Salah sebuah lagu yang bisa membuat aku menitiskan airmata tatkala mendengarnya... Awal tadi sewaktu berbuka, aku terdengar lagu ini ke udara di corong radio.. hatiku sangat sayu, sehingga hati ini menangis.. walaupun tiada titisan airmata, tangisan di hati yang sangat pilu dapatku rasakan..


Sesungguhnya lagu ini amat menginsafkan diriku, petikan dari lagu ini, "kesalahan dan dosaku, hanya Engkau yang tahu..." MasyaAllah..


Sesungguhnya, aku ini sungguh kerdil di sisiMu.. terlalu hina diri ini merasakan... tidak terhitung rasanya kesalahan dan dosa yang pernah aku lakukan... :(

Ramadhan akan muncul kembali

Alhamdulillah! Masa yang sangat sesuai untuk memperbanyakkan amalan, memohon kemaafan, merapatkan tali kekeluargaan dan banyak lagi kebaikkan yang terdapat dalam bulan ini.

Ayuh sama-sama kita menghidupkan sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w.!

Berterawih berjema'ah, bertadarus Al-Qur'an adalah di antara sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w. yang dapat kita manfaatkan sepanjang bulan yang penuh barokah ini.



Acap kali aku berjanji pada diriku untuk memanfaatkan bulan ini.. namun dek kerana kesibukkan dunia.. seringkali aku terlupa.. insyaAllah tahun ini aku berharap ianya akan lebih baik dari tahun yang sudah. Aku akan lebih mengongkongkan diri ini, lebih banyak berdiam diri, kurangkan masa di media sosial dan ingin sekali aku mendalami ilmu tafsirku... insyaAllah! Aku berjanji akan membaca sekurang-kurangnya 5 ayat setiap hari. Illmu! Jika bukan diriku yang memulakannya dan melaksanakannya, sesungguhnya aku akan menjadi seorang yang RUGI! Tidak pernah sekali aku ingin dilabelkan sebegitu.


Semester sekolahku telah pun bermula sejak minggu lepas. Alhamdulillah, masih berdaya diri ini untuk meneruskan perjuangan itu... dengan sokongan keluarga & juga teman2 rapatku... aku yakin aku akan dapat berjaya kelak. Aku memang senantiasa merungut tetapi disebalik rungutan itu aku selalu mengingatkan diriku bahawasanya dalam setiap perjuangan ada kemenangan, walaupun kemenangan itu hanya sedikit namun kemanisannya akan dapat dirasakan buat selamanya...


Khas kepada semua pembaca blog ini: Aku mengucapkan Selamat menjalani Ibadah Shaum (puasa), semoga segala amalan kita diterimaNya, insyaAllah.


Salam sayang,
fiza. H

ku mohon maaf

Teman sekalian,

Andai ini waktu terakhir untukku,
ku mohon maaf atas khilafku,
jika tersilap kata-kataku,
jika tersalah langkahku,
jika tersinggung perasaanmu.

Ku mohon keampunan darimu,
Salam sayang duhai temanku.

- Hafiza, 04 Ogos 2010, 11.30 malam

Keheningan bayu

Khas buat temanku yang teristimewa,

Keheningan bayu di malam hari,
Menimbulkan rasa rindu di hati,
Inginku kecapi tapi tangan digari,
Sudikah dikau memecahkan heningan sepi...

Coretan rindu menjelma sekali lagi,
Tatapi wajahmu pelepasan rindu ini,
Selamat beristirehat si pengubat sepi,
Semoga kau bermimpi indah saat tidurmu nanti...

- Hafiza H., 25 Julai 2010, 3.00 pagi

never hang your dirty laundry outside of the house

have you heard of this quote before?


well, maybe..

it simply means, don't ever share your intimate problems to the whole world!
haha..!! wonder if i get the meaning right..

i know at times i do blog my sadness / problems on this blog.. but i do limit myself, i wouldn't blog on my dark secret (maybe just the highlights, not the detailed version) well.. did i mention secret? yeah, secret = can't be shared.


some problem arise on last friday night that really broke me down, it has been a while since i got a sudden knock like that - i was.. very, very sad. i did cry - alone, yes it feel stupid, but it helps to heal the hurt. i drove down to seletar dam and sat down for a moment. only Allah knows how I felt that moment, as if a sword that has just poke through my heart..


but.. i survived, Alhamdulillah


on saturday noon - everything went back to normal..
as a human being, we do make mistake..
i accepted the apology and i am sorry for being egoist too.



as always... it serve as a gentle reminder for myself.. thanks Allah for the wake up call..

Purnama Merindu - Siti Nurhaliza

Bermaknakah tiap baris kata-kata
Ataukah hanya dibibir saja
Bersungguhkah rindu yang engkau pamerkan
Ataukah sekadar hanya lakonan


Rindu... telah melekat dalam hatiku
Walau awan berlalu
Rinduku... tak berubah... arah


Purnama mengambang... cuma berteman
Bintang berkelipan dan juga awan
Siapa tahu...
Rindu yang mencengkam di hatiku


Aku meminta pada yang ada
Aku merindu pada yang kasih
Aku merayu padamu yang sudi... merindu ku


Purnama mengambang berbagai warna
Bila embun pun datang bintang purnama
Tinggallah aku sendirian bertemankan malam sepi


Aku meminta pada yang ada
Aku merindu pada yang kasih
Aku merindu padamu yang sudi memujuk


Hiaskanlah cinta di jari manisku
Sinarkan bagai gemerlap kencana
Tandakanlah kasih dimercu kalbu
Serikanlah purnama yang merindu..

sajak - kenangan

"i love you" bisa menjadi kata-kata terakhir dariku buat dirimu...


jika esok tiada lagi buatku, aku berasa puas kerna punya peluang melayari bahtera bersamamu...


walau seketika, walau sekejap mana, akanku simpan segala kenangan indah yang pernah aku lalui disampingmu...


selamat malam duhai temanku...



- hafiza, 11 Julai 2010, 10.40malam

a big thank you

I would like to sincerely thank my dear readers for dropping by. Even though I don't know who are the ones who read my posts, i'm thankful that there are people reading it. Thank you so much. Jazakallah khair, may Allah bless you with the biggest reward.




PS: to my dearest mr m, don't be sad k? la tahzan.. next time don't be too careless, be extra careful especially when you are out of the country.. remember everyone may have the same color hair, but not everyone have the same heart. Hopefully he manage to find his stuff tonite, i will be able to help anything that is within my capability.. may Allah smoothen through your journey.

never lose faith in Him

In life, there is only 1 person that you should never lose faith in... Allah SWT - our creator..
SubhanAllah...

He knows what is best for us, He who plans everything for us the moment we arrive in this world.. although lots of people will always forget him but He will accept anybody that is willing to repent...
MasyaAllah..

اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ
Show us the straight path... Al-Quran [1:6], Surah Al-Fatihah

andai kata ada harapan untukku...

Jamal Abdillah

Takdir Penentu Segala

Berat rasa kakiku melangkah pergi
Menujui ke destinasi tak pasti
Andai kata ada harapan untukku
Berikan ku tanda agar jalanku lebih bererti

Kau kucinta dari seluruh ragaku
Melebihi segala di dunia ini
Namun harapan masih tinggal harapan
Dilema menanti lebih menyiksa dari segala

Sesungguhnya...
Takdir penentu segala
Bahagia yang dicita
Hanya sedetik jaraknya

Namun masih... tak tersentuh kau jua
Kabur jua pandangan
Kekasihku... berapakah lamanya
Ketabahanku mungkin akan pudar

ragam manusia

Ada bermacam jenis ragam manusia di dalam dunia ini...

• Ada yang tak akan pernah suka bila lihat orang lain bahagia
• Ada yang suka menjaga tepi kain orang
• Ada yang hanya tahu memerintah
• Ada yang suka menerut, tidak pernah mengetuai
• Ada yang buat hal mereka sendiri

Jadi... kamu rasa kamu berada di dalam linkungan yang mana?

Hmmm... fikir, fikirkanlah...

Bagi aku, manusia yang berada di dalam linkungan yang terakhir ni, macam ada hikmah nya, tetapi di dalam dunia yang metropolitan ini... kita tidak boleh hanya hidup sedemikian... kenapa? Kerana kita ini tidak mahu menjadi seperti katak di bawah tempurung... beginilah nasib kehidupan di dalam dunia...

Kem Kesedaran 2010

A last minute planned camp... one important thing that we learnt throughout the journey of planning for this camp...

• NEVER DO A LAST MINUTE CONFIRMATION
• ALWAYS GET THINGS DONE - NOT ONLY TALK WITH NO ACTION

haiz...................

missing in action

wooowww!! it has been some time since i've blogged.. hmm, have been too piled up with other commitments that I do not have enough time for myself.
It has been few weeks since i've hangout late at nite. hmmm.. missing my personal life... have been focussing too much at work that I cut down my "personal" time at work.. yeah switching myself to a more professional person @ work..

I hate complaints.. yes I really do!

Just finish my last paper for the semester last week.. kinda relief.. but i'm scared of the result.. *pray for me k?*

I'm currently interested to research of something 'new' - won't reveal it here though (quite personal - religious matter). Need some help from the Asatizahs @ PERSIS i guess... *what is happening to this world... - i wonder*



~~may the force be with you!! and have a great weekend everyone!!

\m/ peace and love from ms. fiza

salju di danau rindu

Tak pernah ku kesal
Memilih dirimu
Biarpun pudar kelam masa silam
Bagiku kasih sayang satu anugerah
Tak ternilai olehku

Benarlah katamu hidup penuh pura
Tetapi tidak pada diri ini
Cintaku tulus suci yang lahir dari hati
Salju di danau rindu

Mengapakah sukar menyakinkan cinta
Yang terbiar layu disirami duka
Sedangkan diriku umpama pengemis
Mengharap kasihmu itu
Izinkanlah aku menyintaimu
Dan sesungguhnya cintaku satu...


lagu nyanyian mamat exists
(suka sangat dgn lagu ni, sungguh bermakna, liriknya memukau!)
lagu ini ditujukan untuk si dia~

sebuah kejujuran

pernahkah kita terkeluar dari kepompong kejujuran?
maksudnya dalam kata mudah ialah 'berkelakuan tidak jujur'..
memang selalunya kejujuranlah yang membawa kebahagiaan & juga sebaliknya.

jika dalam sesebuah perhubungan, pasangan tiada sifat jujur, maka porak-perandalah perhubungan itu. kedua-dua pihak memainkan peranan, jika si polan jujur, tetapi pasangannya tidak, akhirnya perhubungan itu akan ranap kelak..

fikirkanlah wahai teman.. untuk diriki ini, aku sentiasa memperingati diri ini, supaya senantiasa jujur, terutamanya kepada orang yang kita sayangi dan mempercayai.. tetapi aku sedar, aku bukannya malaikat.. kadangkala tersasar jua, aku masih perlukan bimbingan.. sesungguhnya diri ini masih lemah~

beberapa hari lalu, 'si dia' bertanyakan pada aku, "oohh so u pun flirt??" "aku senyap tanpa sebarang jawapan.."
so dear, if you're reading this, here's my answer:

i do, BUT, i only flirt..... with you!!
=))

last time, yes i do flirt with other guys, but of course with a limit.. but the moment i found you, yes U! you know who you are~
"hanya dikau sahaja yang bertakhta di hati ini"

janganlah engkau mempersia-siakannya ok?
i <3 you~~~

benci = cinta?

dalam setiap benci itu ada rindu, dalam setiap rindu itu ada cinta. oleh itu janganlah kita terlalu membenci kelak ianya akan berubah arah.

Dan pabila mereka akan menepuk tangan

Pernah tak kita merasa di mana suatu ketika seperti diri kita ini diinjak-injak?

Apa yang seharusnya kita lakukan?

Acap kali pabila perasaan seperti itu terganggu di benak fikiran ini, rasanya seakan ingin berhenti dari apa jua yang kita lakukan...

Namun tiada daya....

Beginilah nasib seorang pengembara..

Pengembara???!!!
Bila masa fiza mengembara?

hehehe.. aku seorang pengembara, pengembara di mana??
Pengembara di dunia!
Dunia yang penuh berpanca roba.
Semoga pengembaraan ini diberkati....


Dan seringkali lah kita ingat bahawasanya apabila kita lemah dan tidak bersatu, maka di waktu itulah mereka akan menepuk tangan, mentertawakan melihat kita... ingatlah wahai teman-teman ku...

mana kamu?

mr. m, mr. m, mana kamu??
ana rindu anta.... ;-)

Derita Merindu - Ahli Fiqir

(Rap)
Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya
Bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x)
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap)
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan..
Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

i feel blessed

Yeah! It's Friday again! Alhamdulillah, I'm still up and running...
Some awesome things happened last Sunday, I'm truly thankful…feel so blessed.
[tiada kata yang dapat aku ungkapkan selain dengan rasa bersyukur]

Firstly, my small business venture, coolMuslimah™, a partnership with my dearest cousin, Fad, manage to set up a stall at the weekend flea market @ Taman Jurong Community Centre. Although there are not much human traffic, we do enjoy ourselves… hahaha, went there early in the morning and we close our stall at about 3pm+. The sales collections are not too bad either [won’t reveal it here hehe]. We are still on a look up for other places to set up our stall. If any of you have any ideas, please do email us at coolmuslimah@live.com. Our next plan is to get a stall in the Yishun area, hopefully we’ll be able to get it, and we will survey the place on this coming Sunday.

Here is the picture taken at the flea market, [fad & me], more pictures has been uploaded on my Facebook.

Oh ya, before I forget, I would like to take this opportunity to thanks the following people for supporting us at the flea market:
Zaki, Nazirul, my mum & dad, Ishaq, pak busu & mak busu, Tini (fad’s friend) and lastly... to him


And.................. here is something sweet to share

from him.................. <3
hehehe....

He came down to our flea market, although for a very short while, his visit has a very big impact on me, why? He met with my mum & my younger brother =P
[someone is very eager to know what my families thought of him hahaha, relaks la bro...]
Another stepping stone? Well... hopefully~
Let's take things one at a time, even though I know time is running out... but after reading the quote below... I feel relief


"If you make intense supplication and the timing of the answer is delayed, do not despair of it. His reply to you is guaranteed; but in the way He chooses, not the way you choose, and at the moment He desires, not the moment you desire." - Ibn Ata'Allah
Quoted from - http://islamgreatreligion.wordpress.com/2009/06/11/islamic-quotes/


PS: For those of you, who are going to Ungu's concert tomorrow, see you guys there!!! I'll be going with my girlfriends, Aini & Diyana...... can’t wait~~ huhuhu I love my weekends~ =)))

gembira semacam aje

Selamat hari jumaat semua~


Hari ni saya rasa macam gembira sangat, entah mengapa, tadi bangun pagi pun macam tak 'cranky' seperti hari-hari biasa.. hahaha mungkin sebab hari ini hari terakhir kerja untuk minggu ni, dan mungkin juga sebab saya gembira sangat hari ini ialah saya sudah selesaikan semua assignment untuk semester ini! yahooo!!!! perasaan lega yang teramat sangat.. Alhamdulillah, syukur.. sekarang ini perjuangan seturusnya ialah: PEPERIKSAAN.


Saya akan menduduki 3 kertas kesemuanya untuk semester ini, takut sudah pasti, tetapi berkat sokongan dan juga dorongan keluarga dan teman-teman tersayang, insyaAllah saya yakin saya akan dapat melepasi gerbang semester ini... teruskan do'akan yang terbaik untuk saya ok? (itulah yang sentiasa saya ucapkan kepada mereka.. heheh)


Oklah, sampai di sini sahaja buat kesempatan kali ini, sehingga kita bertemu lagi di lain kesempatan...


Salam sayang,
Dari hamba yang lemah.

55th post

it has been 7 months, and this blog is still up and running... alhamdulillah! way to go fiza!!
**hahaha! motivate sendiri nampak, oh well.. ;)**

today's post marked my 55th post.. not bad, not bad! i will keep on writing, if there are people who are willing to read... and most importantly, if i'm still alive.. **selagi hayat dikandung badan**

**hidup hanya sekali... so kita enjoy......!!!!** ~ quoted from the famous Puteri drama series

---

Rhy ~ my dear persis sister, had left us to further her studies at UIA.
We had a farewell dinner at sakura, supposedly to be a surprise one, but... she already "sense it" the moment we step into the place... hehehe.. went there with wan, fir, dayah, huda and kyn..
Had a great time with them.. as usual haha, like what kyn says, we produce too much laughing gas :P
Here is the group pic taken (from Rhy's camera), more pictures can be viewed from my Facebook.

All the best to you, our little sister... study hard k!

2 good news to start my weekend

This morning, he announced the arrival of his new nephew (*new blood to his family)..
His first nephew, Hadi now da ada geng lah.. good for him
Congratulations, uncle M! hahaha
Uncle dah naik pangkat, 2 calit... (2 nephews) Corporal seh hehehhee
so happy for you... and most importantly for ur elder sister.. =)


The next one is.... my little brother, Ishaq!! (little ke?)
Oklah since he's little than me, by age I mean.. haha
He got a job interview!!!! So happy for him too!
Really hope he manage to secure a job right after his ORD this coming May.
I really like his attitude... he thinks far.. hopefully he won't disappoint the family.. just like uhhh... ***********
k bro.. remember the advise that we have been given you all these while..
insyaAllah you'll be able to succeed! amin..

lurp lurp, from your one and only sista~ =)))

suatu masa

Suatu Masa

lagu nyanyian M. Nasir
(aku sangat suka akan lagu ini, tidak lapuk dek zaman...)

Bagaimanakan ku mula
Dan apakah kata-kata
Yang indah untuk diabadikan
Tiap wajah berkisah
Tiap madah bererti
Manakah ilhamku

Cahaya di matamu
Senyum di bibirmu
Mengukir seribu tanda pertanyaan
Mungkinkah kau jua dalam kerinduan
Di saat begini aku merindukan

Berhelai-helai surat
Terbiar di depanku
Tak dapat aku utuskan
Ku ramas semua
Dan ku buangkan jauh
Dari pandangan
Lalu aku kesal
Ku kumpul semula
Tak dapat ku nyatakan apa yang ku rasa
Jika engkau tahu di dalam hatiku
Mungkinkah kau sahut jeritan batinku

Dengarkanlah panggilanku
Dengarkanlah lagu untukmu
Angin lalu kau sampaikan
Rasa rindu yang membara kepadanya

Warna-warna cintaku
Kian pudar bersama
Malam yang gelap gelita
Apakah kau rasakan apa yang aku rasa
Atau kau tak endah
Tapi ku percaya
Semua telah tertulis
Dan niat suci ku takkan disiakan
Dan di suatu masa
Di hari yang indah
Ku hulur tanganku
Lalu kau terima

can i sing (karaoke) at my room at this hour?

haha.. i just have the urge of karaoke-ing.. but too bad, at the wrong timing!
its about 1.30am in the morning! imagine if i were to sing, with the loud bass speaker, in a few moment i'm gonna hear a police officer knocking on my door! hehehehe.... full of nonsense larh at this hour..!! the mind feel like doing it, but the body just couldn't resist it.. too tired maybe, it needs more rest i guess, gonna take this opportunity to sleep a lil bit longer than usual..

few plans made for the start of the long weekend... but all canceled, what to do~ it is just not meant to be.. its ok, will still have the time.................. if; there is tomorrow..

have a good day everyone! enjoy ur long weekend~ :-)

sad? -no, its dissapointed

hmmm... it has been quite a while ever since i've blog, 2-3 weeks maybe?
have been posting a number of lyrics recently, most of it is somehow related to my feelings.. hmmm


last Saturday....
a little act of kindness goes down the drain...
(i won't disclose much of what actually happen)


he says, 'u followed ur heart's desires..'
i say, 'u are not sensitive enough..'

he says, 'even my parents won't disturb me..'
i say, 'i just need a minute or two..'


hmmmmmpphhh.........~~~~
-.-"


i STOP and THINK..
i sat on my car at the seletar dam alone, for a few hours.. that i almost fall asleep..
went i got back home, alone in my room, then only the tears start to flow..
i'm sad..


it has been a long time since i cried that way..
i will only cried the same way when i'm truly sad.
i think i am, my heart says so, thats the reason why i cried.
its not me who is crying, its my heart.. and its harder for me to end it.
but Alhamdulillah, i'm fortunate to have Allah by my side..
the prayers to Him, eliminate the miseries away.. syukur Alhamdulillah..


its just not me lah.. i'm not angry, but i'm just disappointed.
"pernahkah kau merasa... hatimu hampa??"


haiz.... he says just let the nature take its cause; its the time for someone to learn the positive and negative points of the other..


i'm hurt.
and only a short apology will be able to rectify these feelings.. =(

PS: thanks to fadbiol and the others who had comfort me, i feel much better..

=(

aku cinta kepadamu, hanya itu yang ku tahu

Puas sudah kau melukakan
Tiada pernah kau meyakinkan
Hati ini yang selalu
Mengharapkan kasihmu

Kau biarkan ku melara
Mengemiskan cinta suci
Apa daya hati ini
Telah jatuh di lamun cinta

Mengapa aku disiksa, apakah tujuan dia
Mungkin kerna ia pernah dikecewakan cinta
Katakan pada diriku aku 'kan membalut luka
Oh... jangan kau simpan dendammu
Dan aku jadi mangsanya

Aku cinta kepadamu
Hanya itu yang ku tahu
Lupakanlah kenangan pahit
Kita bina hidup baru

Lagu Kenangan Lalu dendangan Flybaits.....

lalu air mata jatuh akhirnya

Lalu air mata
jatuh akhirnya
dengan tak sengaja
engkau membuatku
terumbang-ambing
di angkasa.

Hancur musnah
semua mimpiku
hilang di angkasa...

jumaatku

pernahkah kamu mendengar lagu ini..?

"Tanpa ku sedar aku tersebut namamu
Mengapakah hanya dengan tiba-tiba
Aku pun menjadi rindu
Dan wajahmu ku terbayang
Adakah engkau pun begitu merindu

Bila ku rindu aku tersebut namamu
Bila ku resah ingin rasa ku bertemu
Aku jadi tak menentu
menunggu kehadiranmu
Mengapakah lama hilang tanpa berita

Apa khabarmu di sana kekasihku
Semoga engkau tak lupa padaku
Jangan biar ku merindu
Jangan biar ku tertunggu
Sepinya di hatiku menunggumu

Bila ku rindu aku tersebut namamu
Di dalam mimpi aku dibelai olehmu
Indah sungguh percintaan
Indahnya berkasih sayang
Betapa aku merindu kepadamu"

-lagu "Bila ku rindu" dendangan Siti Fairuz..

salah seorang penyanyi yang amat aku kagumi..
lagunya pun menusuk kalbu.. sungguh bermakna.. 'i loike!' hahaha

---

hari ini banyak program yang telah diatur..
setelah sekian lama aku tidak keluar rumah pada malam hari.. hehe
malam ni nak jadi burung hantulah.. sape2 nak join, contact me personally :)


will be having a mini gathering with the ex-yps gals.. only 5 of us, siswa, juwita, hajar and tanuja..
it has been quite a long time since i meet few of them... will have our dinner + gossips session heheh..
not gossip lah more to catching up session :P


then later in the nite... going out with another group of friends..
this time round will be with 2 of my sisters, hids n huds!
we planned to go to jb but.. too bad, didn't get approval from their parents..
will just hang out around singapore, that will be sufficient i guess..
it has been a long time since i hang out with them.. missed them!


more updates next time ya peeps! have a good weekend everyone~~~

alhamdulillah

nice weather today... Alhamdulillah.. Allah has answered our prayers.. It has been raining from last night till the point I am writing now..

I was surprised about the news that one of the jungle at Tampines was actually burnt down yesterday due to the hot weather... scary~
He is the one who decide, if we have the thought that only other countries will have this kind of problems, think again!
Who knows one day Singapore will be affected by Earthquakes, Tsunami... only He who decide..
*we planned, He decide.. Subhanallah!

1 month

it has been exactly 1 month, we have not meet up.... hmmm...
busy, busy, busy................. :'(

nice quote

had a small chat with my dear sis, vis... and she share with me a very nice quote,

 

"don't marry someone who you can live with, but marry someone who you can't live without"

 

very true huh...? hmmm so let's see, with whom can't i live without? we'll see.....

system down

yo! wats up everyone...?
hahaha *macam paham*


why system down? its basically not really a 'system' but more to myself... yes! my body system is down..!! been having muscle cramps, joint pain...... arghhhhh!! i know the main reason.. LACK OF SLEEP!!!!!!! have not been getting my usual 8 hours of sleep every nite now, 4 hours is good enough for me these few days.. one assignment after another, just completed one earlier and there's another one coming in, this time round its the End-of-Course Assessment, more heavier %, need to put in more effort....!


i've been slacking, but i still put it my best performance at work, even though sometimes i just feel like putting my head on the table to take a short nap... unfortunately, this can't be happening here.. at the new environment, its more open, everyone will be staring at my desk if i were to do that, even though on my lunch break... haiz... endure, endure, endure.. as what i've post on my facebook, i really need a motivation............ frens, families, where are you guys??????????????


have not been watching a proper tv show lately, didn't get to watch any dvds either, didn't get the chance to go to jb, didn't get to hangout with my 'lepak kakis', its been a long time since we last played bowling, karaoke-ing, watching movies and lots more!! i've been missing out a lot!!! arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


endure fiza, endure, endure, endure, endure..................................ENDURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


too much complaining on this post.. haiz not too good either.. *sigh

enough of complaining, now i feel a lil relief... i need to get a proper shower now, have a sip of a hot drink then off to sleep... tata!


PS: for the past few days i've been receiving regular readers on this blog, a point of note to him/her, thank you for taking your time off to read my blog, its a pleasure! keep in contact ya! =))

ku merindu

entah mengapa rindu berputik semula..

siapakah yang aku rindu? hehehe
ramai sebenarnya...

aku rindu arwah mak long,
aku rindu arwah tok nab,
aku rindu arwah atok adam,
aite.. apsal lah teringat mereka2 yang da pergi ni..
acap kali kita akan teringatkan pada mereka..

tetapi, bukan itu sahaja, aku pun rindu yg lain2 jugak,
aku rindu cousin2 yg da lama tk jumpa,
aku rindu teman2 persis,
aku rindu students pat persis
aku rindu colleagues pat cvps,
aku rindu students pat cvps...
banyaknye dalam list... heheheh

dan akhir sekali..
aku pun rindu.....*dotdotdot*

rindu itu suatu sifat semulajadi,
semua manusia akan merasakannya..
betul tak?

dan bila tiada siapa yang mengerti

dan baginya ia sekadar jalanan tetapi bagiku ia adalah segala-galanya~

 

fikir-fikirkanlah wahai teman....

i'm gonna miss you

just had a long phone call from him.... and i feel sad now.. sad coz i'm leaving.. =(


haiz...


gonna miss you..!!!


and to all my friends & mates,

please take good care of yourself..

please pray for my safety..

if there's anything happen to me out there..

*kenang daku dalam do'amu*


i love you guys...!! gonna miss everyone!!

butakah cinta?

i'm emotionally unstable~

and this song came into my mind... :'(


Berapa lamakah lagi
Terpaksa aku menanti
Sehingga teguhnya pendirian di hati

Bukan hanya kepentingan
Malahan keegoan telah ku korbankan
Berlimpahan kasih sayang... aku curahkan
Buat mu seorang...

Kiranya semua itu
Tak memadai bagi mu
Apa sebenarnya yang kau mahu
Ku tak tahu...

Kau hilang bila ku tiba
Kau datang bila ku kecewa...
Terasa diri...dipersenda...
Di mana berakhirnya nanti
Permainan sendiwara mu ini...
Sesungguhnya aku... tak mengerti...

Jika benar cinta itu buta...
Butakah mata ku...
Berkali terluka masih jua... ku menunggu...
Apa yang ku inginkan...
Cuma kejujuran dalam perhubungan...

Jika itu tiada...
Apalah ertinya...
Penantian ini hanya sia-sia...

long weeeekkkkkkeeeeeennnnnddddd

went for a picnic cum overnite cum bbq with my beloved family, mak busu's family, kak saniah's family along with kak yati... we pitched about 6 tents but end up 3 of the tents left unoccupied, because we slept outside instead.. the weather is so cooling. it leads the four of us; me, fad, slmt and zaki to sleep out of our own tent.. hahaha! had fun with lots of laughter... we even played taboo, our favorite game! enjoyed the moments with lots and lots of food! the sun that strikes in the morning and noon gave us the sun burn heheh.. i had some on my face, neck and hands.. can see the different tones of color on my skin!


my long weekend will be ending soon... =( sad, sad, sad........can i have it againnnn??? pleaseeeeee


hahaha been busy with work for the past few weeks, i know i have not been blogging last week.. tired with work and the journey to and fro.. it takes about 1.5-2hr journey from work to home... arghhhhhhhh.. hopefully i manage to endure this.. the journey from work to school is also tiring.. haiz.. i'm not complaining.. but...its just... ah...


oh well~ there's something that i'm looking forward to this coming weekend (although its a short one)..........
firstly our so-called personal-business trip to jakarta. (coolMusLimah)
next will be the Ria Birthday Bash!! i won a tix for it!!


i'm so excitedddddddddddddd~~~~~~~ weeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =)))


till we meet again people....... da~

a pink rose affair

guess what??

its a pink rose!! yeah..!

i'm so surprised with the special gift.. didn't expect it.. really, i think i blushed too much till he noticed it.. hehehe *malu, malu*

THANKS to the special someone!!

spent the day/night well with him, after for a few moments we didn't get to meet up due to other commitments..

met him straight after my class, settled some travel insurance with his company, had lunch, then pick up fad n zaki. we went to angsana to buy some books @ Badan, a good place i should say.. highly recommended! then we went to pasar pandan. and then head home.. tiring journey.. n yah i skipped my madrasah class just now, had hid to relief them.. clashed schedule wif my school @ uniSIM..

gonna sleep soon.. and there's a reason for me to smile all the way tonite! hahaha.. thank you everyone! love ya~

assalamualaikum..

diriku hanya insan biasa

quoted from Dato Siti Nurhaliza's song - Bukan Cinta Biasa:



"Diriku hanya insan biasa,
miliki naluri yang sama,
tak ingin berpaling,
tak ingin berganti.

Jiwaku sering saja berkata.

Andai mampuku ulang semula,
ku pasti tiada yang curiga,
kasihkan hadir tiada terduga,
hanya yakin menunggu jawapan......"


current mood: speechless, routeless..... *help, help, help~~*

in class

i'm currently in my 2nd night class for the week. tired.. haiz, i even
fall asleep earlier! hahaha.. having IT mgt module at the moment, the
module is quite dry, but have to survive coz there'll be exam at the
end of the semester.. the lecturer is quite energetic, he try his best
to keep himself and the class alive..

*ngantuk, ngantuk!*

puisi syahdu

tatkala senja malam meliputi siang,
ku dambakan kasih dirimu sayang..

saat ketika kita bersama,
indah,
tiada lagi hambar..

ku yakin akan suatu hari tiba,
jika itu takdirNya,
jika itu suratanNya,
pasti ia kan menjelma jua..

sayang,
kan ku abadikan setiap kata manismu,
kan ku simpan segala kenangan bersamamu,
itulah janji diriku padamu..

setiap langkah coretan dunia,
akan ku selitkan warna dirimu,
setiap kata ungkapan jiwa,
akan ku madahkan puisi dirimu..

penantian akan kehadiranmu,
masih lagi ku impikan,
di sujudku mohon kepadaNya,
agar terbuka pintu hatimu..


P.S.: this is totally random.............. jgn salah faham k.... ilham untuk berkarya terputik semula, puisi ini khas untuk sesiapa sahaja yang sudi membacanya~
selamat membaca!

apa akan kamu buat?

dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah sebentar tadi... aku terlihat seorang lelaki dan seorang perempuan sedang bercumbuan... di sebelah rumahku!! ya Allah!! apa nak jadi...!! aku baru keluar dari lif menuju ke rumah, tiba-tiba terlihat pasangan itu... terkejut aku dibuatnya! ku sangkakan apa... rupa-rupanya mereka sedang berseronok... aku hanya terus berjalan menuju ke rumah, sampai sahaja di hadapan rumah, aku sengaja memberi salam dengan kuatnya.. kebetulan ibu dan adikku tidak mendengar ketibaanku, lalu aku terus mengeraskan suara salamku sekali lagi.. kemudian, si lelaki itu terus menuju ke lif dan memandang ke arahku.. hmmm rasa bersalah ye bang... si lelaki itu memakai pakaian seragam salah sebuah restoran makanan ringan.. tidak ku sangka perkara-perkara seperti ini masih lagi berlaku.. yang amat memalukan mereka itu pasangan MELAYU..!!

jika kamu berada di tempat aku sebentar tadi, apa yang akan kamu lakukan? fikirkanlah, wahai teman....

personal

i've been writing for my personal collection recently, been keeping it for myself... coz its a lil too personal.. when we want to keep a collection of series for us to remember, we will always note it down somewhere... and keep it for ourselves, thats what i'm currently doing.. no worries, i'll still be updating my blog post here.. when i have the extra time, i will look thru my personal collection and update it here.. =)

till then.. have a good nite everyone..

and to you... i'm sorry that i can't please you..

suara dengarkanlah aku

Hijau Daun - Suara Ku Berharap



Ikuti terus lagu ini dan menghayati liriknya... silakannnn =)


di sini aku masih sendiri
merenungi hari-hari sepi
aku tanpamu, masih tanpamu

bila esok hari datang lagi
ku coba hadapi semua ini
meski tanpamu oooh meski tanpamu

bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini
ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
di tempat ini aku bertahan

chorus:
suara dengarkanlah aku
apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku slalu dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

kalau ku masih tetap disini
ku lewati semua yang terjadi
aku menunggumu, aku menunggu

chorus 2:
suara dengarkanlah aku
apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku ada dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

repeat chorus

suara dengarkanlah aku

i'm leaving

i'm leaving compassvale primary officially on the 21st January.. i'm having mixed emotions now, happy, excited, sad.. all at the same time..

its always good to move on but leaving good memories behind do make us turn and look back, and start to ask, "why do we have to go?" i'm leaving for good guys, its not that i'm unhappy with my current position, its just some minor little problem called the benefits making me reluctant to stay, that is why i have to move on..

where am i going now? oh well hehehe (his current favourite quote), will leave that to myself and my close ones for the moment.. if u wanna know, ask.. =))

my insomnia is back

i'm still awake at this hour.... haiz~ later at work i will feel very sleepy and tired.. what to do, i just cant get myself to sleep, had taken an hour nap earlier.. dooze off after watching My First Class 2.

school at cvps started last monday.. a new experience for me. i get to see kiasu parents hahaha, i wont blame them for what they did, if it were to happen to me one day, i think i will be more kiasu than them haha! parents crowding the school gate, the canteen... waiting to catch their child's first primary school experience... cool huh? ;) some even brought their dslr camera along.. woohoo

my IT lessons has not started yet for this year, i will start off with the P1 & P4 first, as per planned.. maybe will start it by 2nd or 3rd week of the semester, giving ample time for the form teachers to settle their classes first. i'm leaving the school end of this month, very sad indeed, i've told some of the students, they feel sad too :(

hopefully the school manage to get a replacement for me asap so that i can train him/her well..

i'm gonna miss my students... especially the cute lil ones... hehehe

nadiku berdenyut merdu

didn't have enough sleep yesterday, slept late the night before coz was doing some admin stuff in the wee hours at markaz with ishaq and zaki, after that we went to jb to pump petrol...

in the morning had asatizah meeting, mini IT revision with wan then help out with the books and cleaning up, getting ready for next week's classes! :-)

sent him a special message last nite... even though having a hangover (i was holding on to my hp - typing my message halfway when suddenly i fell asleep on the living room's chair while watching spiderman 3).. hehehe

i think i can feel it.. yes! it just come by itself... just as what many had said before... things will come when the time comes.. so there you go..

shhhhhhhhhhhhh

da 2010 eh?

seriously?? da masuk tahun baru?? 2010??

wah cepat sungguh masa berlalu... sepertimana aku selalu berkata, masuk tahun baru, tambah lagi satu usiaku.. ;) dari 24 ke 25 tahun ni.. hehehe.. da nak dekat masuk suku abad ni... cepat betul.. alhamdulillah, aku dikurniakan umur sepanjang ini, masih berdiri teguh tegap.. =)

tetapi aku masih mencari arah....

siratol mustaqim... tunjuki aku ke jalan yang lurus...