When the midnight chills came back

When the chills and anxiety suddenly came back, in middle of the night and you can't continue to sleep... haiz..

May Allah bless and protect me always..

And always love the song below...

Dirgahayu Singapura!

Selamat Hari Kebangsaan yang ke 61 buat Singapura!!!

Saya sertakan juga beberapa petikan gambar di atas, yang diambil semasa raptai Hari Kebangsaan kelmarin..

Dirgahayu Singapura!! 🎉

Stabbing on the same wound

Oh ya Allah..

I'm still recovering from the drama last month, and all of a sudden something came about..

And I thought I'm stronger now.. but haiz, I failed..

I cried buckets again..

Coz I thought this wound would had already recovered as it was months ago, but it came back. And knowing new things that somehow hurts, it's like a stab on the same wound again.

Ya Allah.. 😭😭

Awak, if you happen to read this, I'm afraid I can't forgive whatever that you have done. 

Remember the accidents we've been through ages ago and another small one few years back. I've never blamed you for it. When I drive yours, we almost got hit, but alhamdulillah nothing happened, but the scolding I got, only God knows.. I'd never forgot that.

I am tired, mentally tired. Emotionally tired..

May Allah protect me always.. 🤲🤲

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The quote above best describes what happened with both relationships.. 😔😑

Full moon tonight

While I'm on the way home earlier, manage to catch this lovely full moon tonight...

MasyaAllah, the beauty...

And it never fails to wow me all the time.. There's also meteor shower in the wee hours later.. not sure if i can wake up or able to capture a glimpse of it..😅😅

Different perspective?

I received a call from my bff this morning.. she asked if I'm with someone?

Told her nope and not dating anyone at the moment too.. I'm still healing..

She mentioned my posts might have convey a different perspective.. hmm..🤔

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Hopefully there's no confusion here, please do continue to pray for my wellbeing guys.. thank u ❤️

In need of my peace.. this year had been very tough for me.. ❤️‍🩹

May Allah bless and protect us always.. 🤲

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Simple gift

Thank u dear for this...

I really appreciate it.

May all be well for you always..

Till we meet again... mamak session soon ok?

Healing trip

And so he texted..

"When u coming back?"

Thank u for this.. 🥲

Thank u for fetching me at the airport too..

My solo healing trip was great and managed to have lots of self reflection too. Love the city as always, the tranquility never fails..

I didn't update about this trip on socmed, due to some privacy reason. 

Alhamdulillah I'm home now.. may all be well..

Without rain..

Love this quote..

Without rain 🌧️, there wouldn't be any rainbows... 🌈

May all is well... The journey is tough, but insyaAllah all will be good..

And I asked Allah...

I asked Allah...

Why is it always me?

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And I cried buckets of tears...

It was heavy and too painful...

I thought I can be stronger, but oh my, how weak am I.. 😭

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May the sharing below helps...

I know healing journey will take time... 

May I find the peace soon...🤲

Another procedure

Went for yet another procedure at the hospital earlier this morning.. it was a very painful one this time round.. 😢

Hopefully the pain will subside soon.

P.s. I'm not too sure if there are still anyone reading my sharing nowadays. If there are, thank you and hello 👋!

E.A.T

Salam Jumaat di hari Asyura.. hujan membasahi bumi di pagi hari ini...

Semoga dipermudahkan urusan kita bersama...🤲 🥰

Aku fikir ianya sudah tiada

Tatkala tiada notifikasi, di dalam ingatan ku, ahh mungkin si polan sudah tidak lagi mencuba.. 

Namun, aku terkesima ketika membuka emel ku.. masih lagi mencuba, hari2 pula... entah apa yang ingin dicari.. 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Sedang mencuba

Usia ku telah pun melebihi 40, tetapi banyak yang aku pelajari dari petikan di atas. Aku mengambilnya dari Facebook. Aku sedang mencuba untuk menjadi seorang wanita yang lebih baik... Kelihatan senang, tetapi sukar sebenarnya..

Pernah sekali, si dia menegur kerna baju yang aku pakai agak singkat 🥲. Aku sedang mencuba, dan akan terus mencuba... Semoga aku terus istiqamah, insyaAllah.. 🤲

Do'a kan saya ya? 🙏🙏

Secretly in love with the rain too

Alhamdulillah for the cold weather today.

Secretly in love with the rain, cause it somehow soothe me, and cleanse the world. Thank you, ya Allah..

Home cooked meal

It has been awhile since I've cooked rice meal at home.

With ramadhan period and syawal visiting, been cooking other non-rice meals or just had rice outside. 

Thank you to Ilah for the botok-botok and Mimie for the tahu bagedil. On the side, I cooked some beef black pepper too.

Alhamdulillah for all the rezeki.. jemput 🫰

I hate to post this but..

I hated so much to post something like this.. but, it just keeps me going...

Life goes on... 🤐

Mengapa sekarang tidak sebaik dulu?

Aku sangat menyetujui kata-kata di atas.

Semoga kita sentiasa dilindungi dan dikelilingi orang yang menghargai..

InsyaAllah.. amin!

My lil favourite corner

Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah.

I'm very happy with my new little favourite corner at home. Syukur, alhamdulillah, thank you ya Allah.

No present to guess my favourite colour.. 😅🤭

Last but not least, let's all gear up our throttle for the last few laps in Ramadhan.. 💪💪

May we get our Lailatul Qadar, insyaAllah!

Oh Allah, if all the hard times that I'm going through right now are to eliminate all my past sins, I am contented. Please forgive me, ya Allah. 🤲

Please do accept all my do'as from the past and future.

Amin, amin, amin. 🥺🥹😭

Till the next time..

Full moon sighted this morning

Alhamdulillah for the brightest moon sighted this morning.

It's just beautiful, as always.

Have a great day everyone!

Moon eclipse

Moon eclipse.

3rd March 2026

14hb Ramadhan 1447

Alhamdulillah, managed to capture the moon eclipse earlier.

Allahuakbar.

Allahuakbar.

Allahuakbar.

First trip of 2026

Alhamdulillah for all the blessings 🤲😍, feels good to be back to both cities.. (aka "balik kampung" 🤭)

A shorter trip this time with my dearest cuzzie, will I come back again? InsyaAllah... 🙏

P.s. Ramadhan Mubarak to all my dear readers near or far.. 🫰

Sad? nah, Angry? maybe..

Something happened yesterday.

All my instinct had been answered.

I knew something wasn't right ever since, but sometimes you are just in denial. But alhamdulillah, it was shown right in front of my eyes. Maybe it was the do'a that I have prayed for.

For now, I'll continue to do'a for more patience and hopefully with nearing to ramadhan, I'll find the happiness that I've longed for, amin, insyaAllah. 🤲🤲

Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah

Alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah..

❤️❤️

Barakahallu fik for my brother and his wife!!! Bless journey ahead insyaAllah.

Both of you guys had work so hard throughout, remember this is just a start..

And insyaAllah till jannah.. 🤲🤲

Sometimes.. the feeling just come

I can't remember where I got this from.

But this hit me hard... May Allah ease my journey always..