sad? -no, its dissapointed

hmmm... it has been quite a while ever since i've blog, 2-3 weeks maybe?
have been posting a number of lyrics recently, most of it is somehow related to my feelings.. hmmm


last Saturday....
a little act of kindness goes down the drain...
(i won't disclose much of what actually happen)


he says, 'u followed ur heart's desires..'
i say, 'u are not sensitive enough..'

he says, 'even my parents won't disturb me..'
i say, 'i just need a minute or two..'


hmmmmmpphhh.........~~~~
-.-"


i STOP and THINK..
i sat on my car at the seletar dam alone, for a few hours.. that i almost fall asleep..
went i got back home, alone in my room, then only the tears start to flow..
i'm sad..


it has been a long time since i cried that way..
i will only cried the same way when i'm truly sad.
i think i am, my heart says so, thats the reason why i cried.
its not me who is crying, its my heart.. and its harder for me to end it.
but Alhamdulillah, i'm fortunate to have Allah by my side..
the prayers to Him, eliminate the miseries away.. syukur Alhamdulillah..


its just not me lah.. i'm not angry, but i'm just disappointed.
"pernahkah kau merasa... hatimu hampa??"


haiz.... he says just let the nature take its cause; its the time for someone to learn the positive and negative points of the other..


i'm hurt.
and only a short apology will be able to rectify these feelings.. =(

PS: thanks to fadbiol and the others who had comfort me, i feel much better..

=(

aku cinta kepadamu, hanya itu yang ku tahu

Puas sudah kau melukakan
Tiada pernah kau meyakinkan
Hati ini yang selalu
Mengharapkan kasihmu

Kau biarkan ku melara
Mengemiskan cinta suci
Apa daya hati ini
Telah jatuh di lamun cinta

Mengapa aku disiksa, apakah tujuan dia
Mungkin kerna ia pernah dikecewakan cinta
Katakan pada diriku aku 'kan membalut luka
Oh... jangan kau simpan dendammu
Dan aku jadi mangsanya

Aku cinta kepadamu
Hanya itu yang ku tahu
Lupakanlah kenangan pahit
Kita bina hidup baru

Lagu Kenangan Lalu dendangan Flybaits.....

lalu air mata jatuh akhirnya

Lalu air mata
jatuh akhirnya
dengan tak sengaja
engkau membuatku
terumbang-ambing
di angkasa.

Hancur musnah
semua mimpiku
hilang di angkasa...

jumaatku

pernahkah kamu mendengar lagu ini..?

"Tanpa ku sedar aku tersebut namamu
Mengapakah hanya dengan tiba-tiba
Aku pun menjadi rindu
Dan wajahmu ku terbayang
Adakah engkau pun begitu merindu

Bila ku rindu aku tersebut namamu
Bila ku resah ingin rasa ku bertemu
Aku jadi tak menentu
menunggu kehadiranmu
Mengapakah lama hilang tanpa berita

Apa khabarmu di sana kekasihku
Semoga engkau tak lupa padaku
Jangan biar ku merindu
Jangan biar ku tertunggu
Sepinya di hatiku menunggumu

Bila ku rindu aku tersebut namamu
Di dalam mimpi aku dibelai olehmu
Indah sungguh percintaan
Indahnya berkasih sayang
Betapa aku merindu kepadamu"

-lagu "Bila ku rindu" dendangan Siti Fairuz..

salah seorang penyanyi yang amat aku kagumi..
lagunya pun menusuk kalbu.. sungguh bermakna.. 'i loike!' hahaha

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hari ini banyak program yang telah diatur..
setelah sekian lama aku tidak keluar rumah pada malam hari.. hehe
malam ni nak jadi burung hantulah.. sape2 nak join, contact me personally :)


will be having a mini gathering with the ex-yps gals.. only 5 of us, siswa, juwita, hajar and tanuja..
it has been quite a long time since i meet few of them... will have our dinner + gossips session heheh..
not gossip lah more to catching up session :P


then later in the nite... going out with another group of friends..
this time round will be with 2 of my sisters, hids n huds!
we planned to go to jb but.. too bad, didn't get approval from their parents..
will just hang out around singapore, that will be sufficient i guess..
it has been a long time since i hang out with them.. missed them!


more updates next time ya peeps! have a good weekend everyone~~~

alhamdulillah

nice weather today... Alhamdulillah.. Allah has answered our prayers.. It has been raining from last night till the point I am writing now..

I was surprised about the news that one of the jungle at Tampines was actually burnt down yesterday due to the hot weather... scary~
He is the one who decide, if we have the thought that only other countries will have this kind of problems, think again!
Who knows one day Singapore will be affected by Earthquakes, Tsunami... only He who decide..
*we planned, He decide.. Subhanallah!

1 month

it has been exactly 1 month, we have not meet up.... hmmm...
busy, busy, busy................. :'(

nice quote

had a small chat with my dear sis, vis... and she share with me a very nice quote,

 

"don't marry someone who you can live with, but marry someone who you can't live without"

 

very true huh...? hmmm so let's see, with whom can't i live without? we'll see.....

system down

yo! wats up everyone...?
hahaha *macam paham*


why system down? its basically not really a 'system' but more to myself... yes! my body system is down..!! been having muscle cramps, joint pain...... arghhhhh!! i know the main reason.. LACK OF SLEEP!!!!!!! have not been getting my usual 8 hours of sleep every nite now, 4 hours is good enough for me these few days.. one assignment after another, just completed one earlier and there's another one coming in, this time round its the End-of-Course Assessment, more heavier %, need to put in more effort....!


i've been slacking, but i still put it my best performance at work, even though sometimes i just feel like putting my head on the table to take a short nap... unfortunately, this can't be happening here.. at the new environment, its more open, everyone will be staring at my desk if i were to do that, even though on my lunch break... haiz... endure, endure, endure.. as what i've post on my facebook, i really need a motivation............ frens, families, where are you guys??????????????


have not been watching a proper tv show lately, didn't get to watch any dvds either, didn't get the chance to go to jb, didn't get to hangout with my 'lepak kakis', its been a long time since we last played bowling, karaoke-ing, watching movies and lots more!! i've been missing out a lot!!! arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


endure fiza, endure, endure, endure, endure..................................ENDURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


too much complaining on this post.. haiz not too good either.. *sigh

enough of complaining, now i feel a lil relief... i need to get a proper shower now, have a sip of a hot drink then off to sleep... tata!


PS: for the past few days i've been receiving regular readers on this blog, a point of note to him/her, thank you for taking your time off to read my blog, its a pleasure! keep in contact ya! =))